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Freinds and Gaming - My friends made me do it

evilrat
Date: 2008-02-06 02:51
Subject: Freinds and Gaming
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It's been a Blah kinda day. I ran my werewolf game tonight and even though we had our tangents I think it ran smoothly. I was the mostly guilty party on the rants of tangentalism that had nothing to do with the game. I am going to have to weed out the people that don't even call to let me know they aren't going to make it. It sucks too, I enjoy having all of my players there but showing for one game every 2 or 3 months is a bit taxing. My plot line ends up going nowhere because at least one person almost every game is playing catch-up. I now realize why people don't like big gaming groups. If I could just get everyone to show for at least 2 games a month that would be fabulous. I tried the 2 games a month thing but I ended up having a harder time getting back into the groove of my story that way and most of the players couldn't remember all the really big details in the prior game. It takes it's toll on everyone after a while.

I have kept to my schedule of playing in only one game a week though. I run one and play in one. It's more enjotable choosing quality orver quantity. I've been in the past in up to 4 games a week. You end up getting burned out on it real fast. The people that don't normally get under your skin start getting under your skin especially if you play in the same gaming circles. The only downside to that is you find out which people are your gaming friends, your aquaintences and your true friends that way. It's harsh but true. I haven't dropped a line with alot of former gaming buddies though. Feel kinda guilty about that. The last gaming group I left probably thinks I hate all of them for the most part. Don't listen to the rumors. All of you have been in my thoughts. If they are reading his and want the truth just ask the source. If you could give two shits and don't bother after 6 months then I get the drift that you don't want both sides and thats fine. You don't ask, I won't bother letting ya know.

This blog seems to be taking a turn away from gaming of any kind. I have stumbled upon the realization that all of the people I have made friends with I like even though I may not hang out with them on a regular basis... or even hang out with them at all anymore. Sometimes I wish I could be at 30 places at once. I have a metric fuck ton of good memories that I will hold onto for the rest of my life. On one hand if I were to spend time with a different buddy every day for the next year it would leave about 3 months out of the year for spending time with my son. That would make for a very shitty mom move on my part. On the other hand I dislike that I cannot spend more time with those I care about if any at all. I only hope that those people don't end up thinking I don't want to associate with them anymore because of this. Life comes at you fast and you can't always dodge the speed bumps. I do hope that when I pass on that people don't resent me for whatever reason they would. I wish nothing but the best of what they reap for themselves. Remember kiddos you do reap what you sow. By the Gods I try my damndest the sow the right things and learn from what I've screwed up but we are not always given that chance; especcially if you don't know how you screwed it up.

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Wendy Winger: Wendy Far Off
User: wwinger
Date: 2008-02-06 22:14 (UTC)
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I know what you mean about spending time with the kids. My coworkers seem to have this idea that I'm a party animal and keep handing me fliers for every party in town that they get a hold of. I put the fliers back out by the coffee-area, they bring them back into me. "Guys, I have three small children now. Do you really think I'm going to the latest string of beach parties?" I want to spend time with friends, but I also know that the kids are going to wake-up at 6:30 no matter what day of the week it is.

As for not being given the chance to repair a break when people don't tell you how you screwed up... I've been there. Even with the best intentions you wind-up pissing people off at times. I've had a few friends over the years that just seem to start avoiding you, and then you find out from other friends that they're mad at you and aren't talking to you. But if they aren't talking to you to tell you what you did wrong, how can you apologize and make a mends? It's like one screw-up and they've written you off as a friend forever. When it comes down to it, they have to know that every person in their lives is going to upset them at some time and if you write-off every person in your life when they upset you, then you'll be very lonely. So you just have to realize... it's their loss, and really their fault for being willing throw away a friendship so quickly.

I still miss them sometimes when that happens though.

You know what I mean?


Wendy
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evilrat
User: evillrat
Date: 2008-02-06 23:01 (UTC)
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That pretty much sums it up in a nutshell. Thank you very much Wendy. I do miss you so much. I hope to see you soon. I know that the last time you were in town I was just caught up with work. Next time I'll try to catch your fleeting visit. Love ya!
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Wendy Winger: Wendy Far Off
User: wwinger
Date: 2008-02-06 23:19 (UTC)
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It'd be nice to meet up again. It's been too long!

I hope I can make it out sometime soon.


:)

Wendy
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