It's been a Blah kinda day. I ran my werewolf game tonight and even though we had our tangents I think it ran smoothly. I was the mostly guilty party on the rants of tangentalism that had nothing to do with the game. I am going to have to weed out the people that don't even call to let me know they aren't going to make it. It sucks too, I enjoy having all of my players there but showing for one game every 2 or 3 months is a bit taxing. My plot line ends up going nowhere because at least one person almost every game is playing catch-up. I now realize why people don't like big gaming groups. If I could just get everyone to show for at least 2 games a month that would be fabulous. I tried the 2 games a month thing but I ended up having a harder time getting back into the groove of my story that way and most of the players couldn't remember all the really big details in the prior game. It takes it's toll on everyone after a while.
I have kept to my schedule of playing in only one game a week though. I run one and play in one. It's more enjotable choosing quality orver quantity. I've been in the past in up to 4 games a week. You end up getting burned out on it real fast. The people that don't normally get under your skin start getting under your skin especially if you play in the same gaming circles. The only downside to that is you find out which people are your gaming friends, your aquaintences and your true friends that way. It's harsh but true. I haven't dropped a line with alot of former gaming buddies though. Feel kinda guilty about that. The last gaming group I left probably thinks I hate all of them for the most part. Don't listen to the rumors. All of you have been in my thoughts. If they are reading his and want the truth just ask the source. If you could give two shits and don't bother after 6 months then I get the drift that you don't want both sides and thats fine. You don't ask, I won't bother letting ya know.
This blog seems to be taking a turn away from gaming of any kind. I have stumbled upon the realization that all of the people I have made friends with I like even though I may not hang out with them on a regular basis... or even hang out with them at all anymore. Sometimes I wish I could be at 30 places at once. I have a metric fuck ton of good memories that I will hold onto for the rest of my life. On one hand if I were to spend time with a different buddy every day for the next year it would leave about 3 months out of the year for spending time with my son. That would make for a very shitty mom move on my part. On the other hand I dislike that I cannot spend more time with those I care about if any at all. I only hope that those people don't end up thinking I don't want to associate with them anymore because of this. Life comes at you fast and you can't always dodge the speed bumps. I do hope that when I pass on that people don't resent me for whatever reason they would. I wish nothing but the best of what they reap for themselves. Remember kiddos you do reap what you sow. By the Gods I try my damndest the sow the right things and learn from what I've screwed up but we are not always given that chance; especcially if you don't know how you screwed it up.