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evilrat
Date: 2007-09-14 12:47
Subject: Continued Reflection
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 So in light of my former post I have realized one thing. I think too much. I have also realized that I dish out alot of advice. I'm glad I write alot of it here because now I can actually take my own advice! Thanks for being patient with me guys.
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evilrat
Date: 2007-09-14 02:24
Subject: Just amusing.
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  I had taken this before but couldn't save it somehow so I took it again, here are the results.
NerdTests.com says I'm a Dorky Nerd God.  What are you?  Click here! 


Wow, and I even work in a Comic book store. Next stop is working in a library talking to some guy by the name of Dr. Jones.
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evilrat
Date: 2007-09-13 10:06
Subject: Reflection
Security: Public
Mood:thirsty for conversationthirsty for conversation

I was rereading some older posts of mine and realized how much I loved the 'Bitches an' Gaming' entries. I put it in about two years ago. It seems I may have a lower tolerance for the species ignoramous in the autumn season. I came to a desicion about my up and coming Scion game. I definately won't run it for at least 6 months after I'm done with my werewolf game. 
I think I will need a well deserved break after finishing my werewolf game. I thinking about having someone else run a game for a bit and round robin a story or somehing. All flesh mustr be eaten sounds fun. Argg...there I go in ST mode again! Its hard to break that habit. 
As far as my former entries are concerned. I did find A slight error in 'Crying Speaks Louder'. It's at the bottom of the post. I stated that I don['t like freinds that don't think about the consequences of thier actions, this statement is false.  
To restate it correctly; I dislike it when people do not learn from the consequinces of thier actions. I have seen it too many times that people will flat out ignore things that were done. Even worse is when they have a closed ear and when someone is trying to tell them they flat out deny it! That is just messed up. I try to learn from my mistakes and I try to pay attention to what I have done or said. I try to see how things happen after things have been said. It's interesting to see the reactions if you are watching for them. 

Gotta run for now... I'll finish this tangent later.

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evilrat
Date: 2007-09-13 01:07
Subject: Something to contemplate
Security: Public
Location:home
Mood:amusedamused
Music:The background noise of my fish tank is fine enough for me.

Wow, I wonder how much crazy shit can happen in one day?
Any thoughts on this one guys? I mean really how fucked up can life really be? Is it so bad? Get over it, get out more, stop to look forward to something other than the negative. I think that what I'm gonna do. Just try and cut all the bad shit outta my life. I know it's not possible to cut it all out, that would be crazy; life isn't perfect. It throws you curve balls too fast at times to dodge. So lessen it for yourselves and I think you'll be happier with yourself. Stop to think if getting worked up over something is really worth it or not. 9 times out of 10 you'll find that it's not.

Just think about the possibilities.
Live and strive to be happy, not bogged down.
I hope if some of you had a stressed out day like I did, that it helps in some way.

G'nite all.

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evilrat
Date: 2007-09-05 08:16
Subject: Crying Speaks Louder
Security: Public
Location:home
Mood:annoyedannoyed

So check this out. I run a Werewolf the Apocalypse game every Tuesday and I'm trying to wrap up the game. I've been running it for 2 and a half, almost three years now. It's been a good run I'd say except one problem. Last nights game was only 4 hours long and that was stopped by one of my players pitching a fit because their character was challenge for position and out of character they thought every one was ganging up on them and not the character. WHAT THE HELL!!!! How many times do I have to say this. It's a game people, plain and simple. If you can't separate the two then get the fuck out. In retrospect, I was alot nicer than I thought I should have been. We all talked to the player and still for 30 -50 minutes after that they cried at the gaming table while we walked out of the room and had a breather. At the time I was trying to calm down. What I should have done was kick her out of my game at the one hour mark of the whole fiasco interrupting my game. I mean really, What the fuck? You play a game to have fun and it's obvious to me that I am failing as a gm. I hold my punches unlike years ago when I didn't. I've got to toughen up. I've been holding back my plot line just so one person in my game doesn't get their feelings hurt. Wow, I'm really unfair to my other players because that is technically showing favoritism. Why on this green earth am I showing favoritism to a person whom demanded things of me instead of asking politely as a request. A little over a week ago the same person mentioned before demanded I move my game. The real kicker is that they dropped another players name to add clout to their protest. I didn't move my game and the mentioned player had nothing to do with the protest. You don't demand something and imply that your ST (or your friend) is going to kill, in real life, 2 players from sheer exhaustion. That's like threatening me and saying I'm a murderer. It was completely uncalled for. Ontop of that the person didn't apologize and thought nothing of it, or so it seems since then. You don't walk up to your friends and demand anything from them. You ask nicely to let them hear you out. I still have received no apology for that discretion. Ontop of the crying fit, at the end of the game, the player stomped out of the house without even saying good bye to anyone. Now that's just rude. Don't be a bitch if you aren't getting your way cause it's not going to help your situation. The killer of it all is I looked like a total ass for letting a player 'walk' all over me. One of my other players best friends was at my game. He had never seen a role-playing game run before. Now the impression he is going to get is that the ST is supposed to make their players cry. That is not the case at all. 

In a 4 hour run game the group only got through roughly 20 minutes in game time. I had alot of plot points to go through (including wrapping up a background point for one of the players) and it was moving quite well. It looked like the group would get alot accomplished last night. Then the person that broke down walked into the game late. I had told her ahead of time that if she couldn't emotionally handle the game then she shouldn't show up. It was like a diesel throwing on it's air brakes. That's how badly the game was slowed. Then  the 'you are all against me' and 'why are you doing this' cry fest 2007 started. All I want to do is finish my game and give everyone a good ending for thier characters. It doesn't look like it's going to happen. Not at this rate at the very least. I've never, in the 13 years I've run rpg's, had to kick someone out and ask them not to return. I guess their is a first time for everything. If this one player is disrupting the flow of the game this bad I really have no choice. Too bad for me that I gave the player one more chance. If that one person pitches a fit again they are booted. Only problem is that most people think I've given too many chances before. If the player doesn't ship up and start playing a proper game and not let everything on their shoulders get to them, then I either kick them out or lose the rest of my players. The majority rules on this one. Given the dark turn the game is going I don't expect that the person is going to hold out for long. In the next game or two they will probably have another break down. Heh, and don't try to play the 'I had a bad day' or the 'I'm so tired', that's why I'm freaking out' card on me as they tried last night. Too many times have I run a game in worse states than that.There was absolutely no concern for any of the other players. Hell the one player with a sick kid and going on 6 hours of broken sleep for the past 2 weeks didn't complain!  I have no pity when it comes to that. Suck it up or quit. The person shouldn't have even showed up to the game. I can't trust this person anymore. They said that they would be fine and they proved otherwise. 

This kind of relation with a person isn't healthy for anyone. I don't like friends that don't think about the consequence of thier actions. I think it's obvious from the previous mentioned instances that this person is not a friend. (there is more than that I just don't have the time to write it all down.) I know I'm more annoyed than I should be.

Actions speak louder than words. 
In this case, crying speaks louder than words.

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evilrat
Date: 2006-02-21 16:52
Subject: updates, I know I don't write often
Security: Public
Mood:weirdweird
Music:frank sinatra - Cake
Alright, for all of you livejournal junkies. It is my apologies that I do not update this often. The truth is that I don't write in myspace or 360 often either. But I do check myspace more often than even my e-mail. For those of you who do wish to read any kind of new blog shit I've posted I recently posted to myspace about trusting people around you and how you really can't but you are forced to otherwise you'd be totally alone. Well, that may not be how it read but that's how it reads to me now. *shrug* oh well. I know that some of you who read the random entries here have myspace accounts so I won't be redundant. If you really want to read it let me know and I'll send it to you through e-mail. *shrug* I doubt any of you will though. Not that you are disinterested. It's just a pain in the ass for you really. Unless you are really bored. I'm doing okay if you're wondering. Blah. That's pretty much how it is today. It's wierd cause I'm fine then annoyed then happy then paranoid then....well you get the pic. it's just wierd. Peace love and Satan, I'm out.
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evilrat
Date: 2005-11-09 12:51
Subject: This is a test of the emergency broadcraping system.
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Mr. Knight, paging Mr. Knight. Please call Corey. It is imparative that you call Corey. It is about your tenants and the electricity in your house in SA. Take it easy.
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evilrat
Date: 2005-11-07 12:24
Subject: Bitches an' Gaming
Security: Public
Mood:ruthlessruthless
Music:Prodigy - Smack my Bitch up

*tkshhhht* "test..test...is anyone hearing this? Oh well, if it gets through it gets through. So there I was sitting down reading the newspaper and all of a sudden these blond-haired, blue-eyed women hovered down out of the sky in full body tactical armour. They said they were on a mission to save the video game community from total annihilation due to the asinine wanton impulses of the male mind. They handed me a suit of my own and pretty piece of bling (known to you other people as an energy sword). Off we went to kill idiotic male gamers; console, PC, RPG, CCG, and any other like forms of whiny munchkin gamers of the male persuasion. Those that were spared were the ones who do not let games piss them off, do not wave their dicks around about 'how powerful their characters are', do not try to claim "seniority" just to get a particular spot to sit at someones house during a game, and don't do any other retarded things that male gamers in general do. Granted a handful of female gamers had to go for the same reasons. We locked and loaded for the next onslaught of gamers that needed to be put down on order for a peaceful ubergeek paradise to occur. Granted now I Have to sit in a bunker made of power cords and blank character sheets for the remainder of my gaming life to ensure that others are never subject to people who intentionally and unintentionally spoil the gaming experience for everyone. Please remember one thing people, IT'S JUST A FUCKING GAME!!! DON'T LET YOUR LIFE REVOLVE AROUND IT! IT ISN'T THAT IMPORTANT AND IF IT IS THEN YOU NEED THERAPY! FUCK YOU ALL WITH YOUR MIGHTIER THAN THOU, I HAVE MORE STUFF THAN YOU BULLSHIT! IF THAT'S ALL YOU HAVE TO OFFER TO THE WORLD THEN PUT A FUCKING PEA-SHOOTER TO YOUR SKULL AND KISS YOUR ASS GOODBYE!!!! FUCK IT I'M OUT......over." *tkshhhhk*

 

 

 

And that what you get from me after reading an article in the newspaper about native female console gamers dominating the tournament circuit, and dealing with too many childish people in games lately. Jesus people, do you even daydream about where you want to take your life??

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evilrat
Date: 2005-11-02 17:08
Subject: Family over rum, Who'dve thought that as a tie-breaker?
Security: Public
Mood:amusedamused
Music:Soggy Bottom Boys - I am a man of constant sorrow
You scored as Maximus. After his family was murdered by the evil emperor Commodus, the great Roman general Maximus went into hiding to avoid Commodus's assassins. He became a gladiator, hoping to dominate the colosseum in order to one day get the chance of killing Commodus. Maximus is valiant, courageous, and dedicated. He wants nothing more than the chance to avenge his family, but his temper often gets the better of him.

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Captain Jack Sparrow

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Maximus

83%

Batman, the Dark Knight

75%

Lara Croft

67%

El Zorro

63%

William Wallace

63%

Indiana Jones

54%

The Amazing Spider-Man

50%

Neo, the "One"

50%

James Bond, Agent 007

46%

The Terminator

25%

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evilrat
Date: 2005-10-06 16:02
Subject: Distraction
Security: Public
Mood:contemplativecontemplative
Music:no music, just the cardinals vs padres game

Well now, I just got back from a funeral not to long ago and I've never felt better about someone dying. I know that may seem harsh but it wasn't your normal Catholic funeral. It was led by the coolest damn preist. He had a very I-don't-give-a-flying-nun-if-you're-not-Catholic attitude. It was the most comfortable I've ever felt in a church. I't just made my day. The preist was very charismatic and irish to boot, accent and everything.  I sat there wondering if he had any 'available' family members. Damn me and my hang-up on the Irish. Once, just once I'd like to date one. I'd like it to work out, hell I'd like any relationship to eventually work out for me. But I see one BIG problem with it. I can't seem to leave well enough alone. I poke and prod at something that seems too perfect and when it moves I run rabbit. I haven't quite gotten to the point where I think I could trust someone completely in a relationship situation either. Being screwed over by a lying bastard when you beleived damn near everything he told you no matter what people told you about him kinda does that to a person. Now don't get me wrong, I trust all my friends and beleive that they won't screw me over. Stuff just changes when you get into a relationship. Why can't you just date someone and still trust them like a freind? I think that question is rhetorical. I think I worry too much about myheart being stomped on. It really sucks. I never want to feel betrayed again. On that note I think I'm going to stay a single-Mom for all eternity. I just don't want to put up with all the BS surrounding a relationship. And since I don't want to be betrayed again then that means I'll never put my ass on the line or completely fall arse-over-tit for someone again. Ahhhhh. Overanalysation, it's a great way to avoid getting hurt in any situation but it sure is lonely.

Toodles for now people

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