My friends made me do it

Sponsors...

2008-03-21T01:10:38Z

I am now on the hunt for potential sponsors for the party next year. A sponsor will get advertising on our event flyers. Money to the cause means more prizes for next year. I have a few businesses lined up but they will not be announced until further notice. I have been getting feedback from many people in thanks for the show. I welcome you all and hope it was a good night to remember.

sweet tooth

2008-03-03T19:59:55Z

So how many of you out there have heard of Pocky? If you have then how about Ramune soda? Just restocking the shelves at work and it occured to me how many people I know of who hasn't heard of it or can't get enough of the stuff. *shrug* Just strange randomness from the Beckster. Have a good day Ya'll!

Irony at it's best

2008-02-11T22:49:28Z

So I'm at work. We have the radio on in the background and turning japanese comes on the radio. I check out a custonmer renting anime and somehow I find the irony in that. I know that is not what the song is about but come on people that's just funny.

Hospitals

2008-02-07T04:50:58Z

So I never felt so comfortable being in a hospital before. Don't worry I'm just visiting someone here. We are watching 310 to Yuma. I've seen it once but this is the second time. It's pretty cool. I'm not blood family but they are letting me chill here as long as I don't stay the night. It's the perfect end to a good day. Huzzah! Hope everyone had a good day. I feel as though a great weight has been lifted off my shoulders.

Freinds and Gaming

2008-02-06T08:55:14Z

It's been a Blah kinda day. I ran my werewolf game tonight and even though we had our tangents I think it ran smoothly. I was the mostly guilty party on the rants of tangentalism that had nothing to do with the game. I am going to have to weed out the people that don't even call to let me know they aren't going to make it. It sucks too, I enjoy having all of my players there but showing for one game every 2 or 3 months is a bit taxing. My plot line ends up going nowhere because at least one person almost every game is playing catch-up. I now realize why people don't like big gaming groups. If I could just get everyone to show for at least 2 games a month that would be fabulous. I tried the 2 games a month thing but I ended up having a harder time getting back into the groove of my story that way and most of the players couldn't remember all the really big details in the prior game. It takes it's toll on everyone after a while.

I have kept to my schedule of playing in only one game a week though. I run one and play in one. It's more enjotable choosing quality orver quantity. I've been in the past in up to 4 games a week. You end up getting burned out on it real fast. The people that don't normally get under your skin start getting under your skin especially if you play in the same gaming circles. The only downside to that is you find out which people are your gaming friends, your aquaintences and your true friends that way. It's harsh but true. I haven't dropped a line with alot of former gaming buddies though. Feel kinda guilty about that. The last gaming group I left probably thinks I hate all of them for the most part. Don't listen to the rumors. All of you have been in my thoughts. If they are reading his and want the truth just ask the source. If you could give two shits and don't bother after 6 months then I get the drift that you don't want both sides and thats fine. You don't ask, I won't bother letting ya know.

This blog seems to be taking a turn away from gaming of any kind. I have stumbled upon the realization that all of the people I have made friends with I like even though I may not hang out with them on a regular basis... or even hang out with them at all anymore. Sometimes I wish I could be at 30 places at once. I have a metric fuck ton of good memories that I will hold onto for the rest of my life. On one hand if I were to spend time with a different buddy every day for the next year it would leave about 3 months out of the year for spending time with my son. That would make for a very shitty mom move on my part. On the other hand I dislike that I cannot spend more time with those I care about if any at all. I only hope that those people don't end up thinking I don't want to associate with them anymore because of this. Life comes at you fast and you can't always dodge the speed bumps. I do hope that when I pass on that people don't resent me for whatever reason they would. I wish nothing but the best of what they reap for themselves. Remember kiddos you do reap what you sow. By the Gods I try my damndest the sow the right things and learn from what I've screwed up but we are not always given that chance; especcially if you don't know how you screwed it up.

plastic spiky bits

2008-01-28T20:32:39Z

So I'm at work and the games coordinator walks in with new terrain for warhammer 40k. I take a look and get an idea for an objective marker. I rummage through all his stuff and now I'm making a fence with cans on it. I thought to myself 'Hey, who says spacemarines don't like a little redneck target practice too?' Filing bits down sucks. I think my left hand should just about fall off now. I think it will turn out looking good though. My first miniature and it is custom made and not a skaven. I have an skaven entire army for warhamer fantasy but I'm still filing bits down. this project looks like it will be finish soon. I'll post pics when it's done.

Funny as hell!

2008-01-21T21:55:47Z

A gay gnome with a badger and an angsty tiefling.
you have got to check this out if you are a gamer.
Christi you will either love this or hate it. hehe. *punt*

http://www.wizards.com/default.asp?x=dnd/welcome&dcmp=ILC-DND062006FP

Let me know what ya'll think.

Wow, How in the hell.

2008-01-07T10:46:59Z

Just a random thought on polotics.

Will we ever from here on out gain president that isn't made fun of by a vast majority of people?

It seems to be an on going trend.

Good song

2007-09-18T21:09:35Z

Can you guess the artist? Gee I've been on a rampage since saturday night. I can't get certain songs out of my head. This is one of them. I never thought I would say this but Trent Reznor rocks on graham crackers. I hate you for getting that stuck in my head Kelly.

I'm trying to come up with something for my werewolf game. My players have been continually calling all day while I was at work. I try to answer them all, even the texts but I can't 50 % of the time. Sorry if I missed ya, I will check again. See ya'll round.

"Where Is Everybody?"

did you happen to catch
or did it happen so fast
what you thought would always last
has passed you by
is everything speeding up
or am I slowing down
just spinning around
and I don't know why
all the pieces don't fit
thought I really didn't give a shit
I never wanted to be like you
but for all I aspire
I am really a liar
and I'm running out of things I can do

I'd like to stay
but every day
everything pushes me further away
if you could show
help me to know
how it's supposed to be
where did it go?

pleading and
needing and
bleeding and
breeding and
feeding
exceeding
where is everybody?
trying and lying
defying denying
crying and dying
where is everybody?

well okay, enough,
you've had your fun
but come on there has to be someone
that hasn't yet become
so numb and succumb
and god damn I am so tired of pretending
of wishing I was ending
when all I'm really doing is trying to hide
and keep it inside
and fill it with lies
open my eyes?
maybe I wish I could try

pleading and needing
and bleeding and breeding
and feeding exceeding
where is everybody?
trying and lying
defying denying
crying and dying
where is everybody?

AHA!!

2007-09-17T19:12:46Z

Burn the bridges down and cut yourself off!!

just a random thought concerning a current situation. *shrug*

Continued Reflection

2007-09-14T17:52:25Z

So in light of my former post I have realized one thing. I think too much. I have also realized that I dish out alot of advice. I'm glad I write alot of it here because now I can actually take my own advice! Thanks for being patient with me guys.

Just amusing.

2007-09-14T07:27:44Z

I had taken this before but couldn't save it somehow so I took it again, here are the results.

Wow, and I even work in a Comic book store. Next stop is working in a library talking to some guy by the name of Dr. Jones.

Reflection

2007-09-13T15:27:24Z

I was rereading some older posts of mine and realized how much I loved the 'Bitches an' Gaming' entries. I put it in about two years ago. It seems I may have a lower tolerance for the species ignoramous in the autumn season. I came to a desicion about my up and coming Scion game. I definately won't run it for at least 6 months after I'm done with my werewolf game.
I think I will need a well deserved break after finishing my werewolf game. I thinking about having someone else run a game for a bit and round robin a story or somehing. All flesh mustr be eaten sounds fun. Argg...there I go in ST mode again! Its hard to break that habit.
As far as my former entries are concerned. I did find A slight error in 'Crying Speaks Louder'. It's at the bottom of the post. I stated that I don['t like freinds that don't think about the consequences of thier actions, this statement is false.
To restate it correctly; I dislike it when people do not learn from the consequinces of thier actions. I have seen it too many times that people will flat out ignore things that were done. Even worse is when they have a closed ear and when someone is trying to tell them they flat out deny it! That is just messed up. I try to learn from my mistakes and I try to pay attention to what I have done or said. I try to see how things happen after things have been said. It's interesting to see the reactions if you are watching for them.

Gotta run for now... I'll finish this tangent later.

Something to contemplate

2007-09-13T06:15:29Z

Wow, I wonder how much crazy shit can happen in one day?
Any thoughts on this one guys? I mean really how fucked up can life really be? Is it so bad? Get over it, get out more, stop to look forward to something other than the negative. I think that what I'm gonna do. Just try and cut all the bad shit outta my life. I know it's not possible to cut it all out, that would be crazy; life isn't perfect. It throws you curve balls too fast at times to dodge. So lessen it for yourselves and I think you'll be happier with yourself. Stop to think if getting worked up over something is really worth it or not. 9 times out of 10 you'll find that it's not.

Just think about the possibilities.
Live and strive to be happy, not bogged down.
I hope if some of you had a stressed out day like I did, that it helps in some way.

G'nite all.

Crying Speaks Louder

2007-09-05T14:38:32Z

So check this out. I run a Werewolf the Apocalypse game every Tuesday and I'm trying to wrap up the game. I've been running it for 2 and a half, almost three years now. It's been a good run I'd say except one problem. Last nights game was only 4 hours long and that was stopped by one of my players pitching a fit because their character was challenge for position and out of character they thought every one was ganging up on them and not the character. WHAT THE HELL!!!! How many times do I have to say this. It's a game people, plain and simple. If you can't separate the two then get the fuck out. In retrospect, I was alot nicer than I thought I should have been. We all talked to the player and still for 30 -50 minutes after that they cried at the gaming table while we walked out of the room and had a breather. At the time I was trying to calm down. What I should have done was kick her out of my game at the one hour mark of the whole fiasco interrupting my game. I mean really, What the fuck? You play a game to have fun and it's obvious to me that I am failing as a gm. I hold my punches unlike years ago when I didn't. I've got to toughen up. I've been holding back my plot line just so one person in my game doesn't get their feelings hurt. Wow, I'm really unfair to my other players because that is technically showing favoritism. Why on this green earth am I showing favoritism to a person whom demanded things of me instead of asking politely as a request. A little over a week ago the same person mentioned before demanded I move my game. The real kicker is that they dropped another players name to add clout to their protest. I didn't move my game and the mentioned player had nothing to do with the protest. You don't demand something and imply that your ST (or your friend) is going to kill, in real life, 2 players from sheer exhaustion. That's like threatening me and saying I'm a murderer. It was completely uncalled for. Ontop of that the person didn't apologize and thought nothing of it, or so it seems since then. You don't walk up to your friends and demand anything from them. You ask nicely to let them hear you out. I still have received no apology for that discretion. Ontop of the crying fit, at the end of the game, the player stomped out of the house without even saying good bye to anyone. Now that's just rude. Don't be a bitch if you aren't getting your way cause it's not going to help your situation. The killer of it all is I looked like a total ass for letting a player 'walk' all over me. One of my other players best friends was at my game. He had never seen a role-playing game run before. Now the impression he is going to get is that the ST is supposed to make their players cry. That is not the case at all.

In a 4 hour run game the group only got through roughly 20 minutes in game time. I had alot of plot points to go through (including wrapping up a background point for one of the players) and it was moving quite well. It looked like the group would get alot accomplished last night. Then the person that broke down walked into the game late. I had told her ahead of time that if she couldn't emotionally handle the game then she shouldn't show up. It was like a diesel throwing on it's air brakes. That's how badly the game was slowed. Then the 'you are all against me' and 'why are you doing this' cry fest 2007 started. All I want to do is finish my game and give everyone a good ending for thier characters. It doesn't look like it's going to happen. Not at this rate at the very least. I've never, in the 13 years I've run rpg's, had to kick someone out and ask them not to return. I guess their is a first time for everything. If this one player is disrupting the flow of the game this bad I really have no choice. Too bad for me that I gave the player one more chance. If that one person pitches a fit again they are booted. Only problem is that most people think I've given too many chances before. If the player doesn't ship up and start playing a proper game and not let everything on their shoulders get to them, then I either kick them out or lose the rest of my players. The majority rules on this one. Given the dark turn the game is going I don't expect that the person is going to hold out for long. In the next game or two they will probably have another break down. Heh, and don't try to play the 'I had a bad day' or the 'I'm so tired', that's why I'm freaking out' card on me as they tried last night. Too many times have I run a game in worse states than that.There was absolutely no concern for any of the other players. Hell the one player with a sick kid and going on 6 hours of broken sleep for the past 2 weeks didn't complain! I have no pity when it comes to that. Suck it up or quit. The person shouldn't have even showed up to the game. I can't trust this person anymore. They said that they would be fine and they proved otherwise.

This kind of relation with a person isn't healthy for anyone. I don't like friends that don't think about the consequence of thier actions. I think it's obvious from the previous mentioned instances that this person is not a friend. (there is more than that I just don't have the time to write it all down.) I know I'm more annoyed than I should be.

Actions speak louder than words.
In this case, crying speaks louder than words.

updates, I know I don't write often

2006-02-22T23:03:42Z

Alright, for all of you livejournal junkies. It is my apologies that I do not update this often. The truth is that I don't write in myspace or 360 often either. But I do check myspace more often than even my e-mail. For those of you who do wish to read any kind of new blog shit I've posted I recently posted to myspace about trusting people around you and how you really can't but you are forced to otherwise you'd be totally alone. Well, that may not be how it read but that's how it reads to me now. *shrug* oh well. I know that some of you who read the random entries here have myspace accounts so I won't be redundant. If you really want to read it let me know and I'll send it to you through e-mail. *shrug* I doubt any of you will though. Not that you are disinterested. It's just a pain in the ass for you really. Unless you are really bored. I'm doing okay if you're wondering. Blah. That's pretty much how it is today. It's wierd cause I'm fine then annoyed then happy then paranoid then....well you get the pic. it's just wierd. Peace love and Satan, I'm out.

This is a test of the emergency broadcraping system.

2005-11-09T20:54:23Z

Mr. Knight, paging Mr. Knight. Please call Corey. It is imparative that you call Corey. It is about your tenants and the electricity in your house in SA. Take it easy.

Bitches an' Gaming

2005-11-07T18:41:40Z

*tkshhhht* "test..test...is anyone hearing this? Oh well, if it gets through it gets through. So there I was sitting down reading the newspaper and all of a sudden these blond-haired, blue-eyed women hovered down out of the sky in full body tactical armour. They said they were on a mission to save the video game community from total annihilation due to the asinine wanton impulses of the male mind. They handed me a suit of my own and pretty piece of bling (known to you other people as an energy sword). Off we went to kill idiotic male gamers; console, PC, RPG, CCG, and any other like forms of whiny munchkin gamers of the male persuasion. Those that were spared were the ones who do not let games piss them off, do not wave their dicks around about 'how powerful their characters are', do not try to claim "seniority" just to get a particular spot to sit at someones house during a game, and don't do any other retarded things that male gamers in general do. Granted a handful of female gamers had to go for the same reasons. We locked and loaded for the next onslaught of gamers that needed to be put down on order for a peaceful ubergeek paradise to occur. Granted now I Have to sit in a bunker made of power cords and blank character sheets for the remainder of my gaming life to ensure that others are never subject to people who intentionally and unintentionally spoil the gaming experience for everyone. Please remember one thing people, IT'S JUST A FUCKING GAME!!! DON'T LET YOUR LIFE REVOLVE AROUND IT! IT ISN'T THAT IMPORTANT AND IF IT IS THEN YOU NEED THERAPY! FUCK YOU ALL WITH YOUR MIGHTIER THAN THOU, I HAVE MORE STUFF THAN YOU BULLSHIT! IF THAT'S ALL YOU HAVE TO OFFER TO THE WORLD THEN PUT A FUCKING PEA-SHOOTER TO YOUR SKULL AND KISS YOUR ASS GOODBYE!!!! FUCK IT I'M OUT......over." *tkshhhhk*

And that what you get from me after reading an article in the newspaper about native female console gamers dominating the tournament circuit, and dealing with too many childish people in games lately. Jesus people, do you even daydream about where you want to take your life??

Family over rum, Who'dve thought that as a tie-breaker?

2005-11-03T23:12:21Z

You scored as Maximus. After his family was murdered by the evil emperor Commodus, the great Roman general Maximus went into hiding to avoid Commodus's assassins. He became a gladiator, hoping to dominate the colosseum in order to one day get the chance of killing Commodus. Maximus is valiant, courageous, and dedicated. He wants nothing more than the chance to avenge his family, but his temper often gets the better of him.

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Captain Jack Sparrow

83%

Maximus

83%

Batman, the Dark Knight

75%

Lara Croft

67%

El Zorro

63%

William Wallace

63%

Indiana Jones

54%

The Amazing Spider-Man

50%

Neo, the "One"

50%

James Bond, Agent 007

46%

The Terminator

25%

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Distraction

2005-10-06T21:07:20Z

Well now, I just got back from a funeral not to long ago and I've never felt better about someone dying. I know that may seem harsh but it wasn't your normal Catholic funeral. It was led by the coolest damn preist. He had a very I-don't-give-a-flying-nun-if-you're-not-Catholic attitude. It was the most comfortable I've ever felt in a church. I't just made my day. The preist was very charismatic and irish to boot, accent and everything. I sat there wondering if he had any 'available' family members. Damn me and my hang-up on the Irish. Once, just once I'd like to date one. I'd like it to work out, hell I'd like any relationship to eventually work out for me. But I see one BIG problem with it. I can't seem to leave well enough alone. I poke and prod at something that seems too perfect and when it moves I run rabbit. I haven't quite gotten to the point where I think I could trust someone completely in a relationship situation either. Being screwed over by a lying bastard when you beleived damn near everything he told you no matter what people told you about him kinda does that to a person. Now don't get me wrong, I trust all my friends and beleive that they won't screw me over. Stuff just changes when you get into a relationship. Why can't you just date someone and still trust them like a freind? I think that question is rhetorical. I think I worry too much about myheart being stomped on. It really sucks. I never want to feel betrayed again. On that note I think I'm going to stay a single-Mom for all eternity. I just don't want to put up with all the BS surrounding a relationship. And since I don't want to be betrayed again then that means I'll never put my ass on the line or completely fall arse-over-tit for someone again. Ahhhhh. Overanalysation, it's a great way to avoid getting hurt in any situation but it sure is lonely.

Toodles for now people